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Wow! The realisation just dawned on me that we're nearing the end of this year's first quarter. Time just flew by so quickly that everything that's happened in the last two months all seem like a blur. I hardly remember anything.
That being said, I had to ask myself a couple of questions: What have I accomplished in the last couple of months? How's my progress in reaching my 2014 goals?
The answer is ... nothing much. Really. Well, I started reading Jesus the Christ. I'm already at chapter three, but I took an indefinite respite from it because, to be honest, I've been having difficult-vocabulary-induced headaches. I understood most of them, the context and all, but the OC in me had to check the dictionary from time to time to know the exact definitions of some words because, using a popular Filipino expression, some words are just "Nosebleed!"
Anyhow, that's not going to stop me from finishing the book before the year ends. I shall and I will. You'll see!
On a different note, Josh and I started going to the temple again. We weren't consistent in going to the temple last year due to personal reasons. Nothing grave, though, like we need to talk to our Bishop. We just felt that we needed to sort out some issues before we can truly feel prepared and worthy to enter a holy place. So yesterday, we were able to attend the afternoon session, and I'm glad we did. I received personal revelations that have strengthened my faith.
You see, a lot of things have happened to my life and to my family last year. The worse of which was the passing of my mom. Since her death, I've been struggling emotionally, financially, physically and, sad to say, spiritually.
I still am now.
There are times that I feel angry at the world, and there are also times when I feel like Heavenly Father doesn't love me anymore. That I deserve all the negative things that's happened to me. I even feel depressed at times. But yesterday's temple attendance was a wake-up call.
I've felt the Spirit during the entire 2-and-a-half hours that we were there. It was so strong that there's no denying the spiritual impressions I've received. Some of the things that I've come to remember and to feel is that Heavenly Father still loves and cares for me. And that His arms of mercy is still extended towards me despite my imperfections. Also, a strong impression came to my mind and told me to trust in the Savior, Jesus Christ, and in His Atonement. And that everything that has happened to my life is a test of my faith. As long as I hold on, stay humble and be obedient, everything will be okay. That He won't forsake me.
Some people who have seen me for several months would probably say that I'm okay and have finally moved on. But deep down, I really wasn't. I think even until now. Yesterday, however, was different. Receiving those impressions really made my day. In fact, it made me feel good inside, which I haven't felt in a really long time. That explains why yesterday was special to me. I'm not saying that the darkness has completely disappeared like magic. It's still there, the anger, the sadness, the frustration and all, but I can feel that it's slowly dissipating as I remember the Savior's love and sacrifice as well as God's deep love for His children.
Oh, I just realised now that I've had the same impressions the last few times we went to the temple. It was only yesterday when the messages finally sank deep within me.
I'm so grateful for the opportunity to go to the temple yesterday. I feel so blessed to have such a beautiful place within our midst. Whenever we need spiritual strength and guidance, we don't have to save up for a year to go to the Manila Temple because there's another one just a few blocks away from our house.
Anyway, I hope you guys (LDS temple recommend holders) will also receive spiritual strength every time you go to the temple.
I've felt the Spirit during the entire 2-and-a-half hours that we were there. It was so strong that there's no denying the spiritual impressions I've received. Some of the things that I've come to remember and to feel is that Heavenly Father still loves and cares for me. And that His arms of mercy is still extended towards me despite my imperfections. Also, a strong impression came to my mind and told me to trust in the Savior, Jesus Christ, and in His Atonement. And that everything that has happened to my life is a test of my faith. As long as I hold on, stay humble and be obedient, everything will be okay. That He won't forsake me.
Some people who have seen me for several months would probably say that I'm okay and have finally moved on. But deep down, I really wasn't. I think even until now. Yesterday, however, was different. Receiving those impressions really made my day. In fact, it made me feel good inside, which I haven't felt in a really long time. That explains why yesterday was special to me. I'm not saying that the darkness has completely disappeared like magic. It's still there, the anger, the sadness, the frustration and all, but I can feel that it's slowly dissipating as I remember the Savior's love and sacrifice as well as God's deep love for His children.
Oh, I just realised now that I've had the same impressions the last few times we went to the temple. It was only yesterday when the messages finally sank deep within me.
I'm so grateful for the opportunity to go to the temple yesterday. I feel so blessed to have such a beautiful place within our midst. Whenever we need spiritual strength and guidance, we don't have to save up for a year to go to the Manila Temple because there's another one just a few blocks away from our house.
Anyway, I hope you guys (LDS temple recommend holders) will also receive spiritual strength every time you go to the temple.
Have a blessed week!
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